Anehnya hidup ni.
Manusia datang dan pergi. How I wish I can stop them from coming and going.
Could they for once stay?
Stay and be loyal to me.
Stay and promise to keep me warm.
Stay and heal this sickness.
Stay and love me unconditionally.

Ramadhan achievement

Salam :)

Semalam ialah hari bersejarah buat diri ini.Haha ayat tak nak kalah. Apa yg nk sejarah sangat entah. Takdelah, just rasa semalam happy sebab dapat achieve something. Nak tau tak apa?

#Terasa kurus

Sebab apa kita kata camtu? sebab kita dah muat baju yang dah beli tapi tak pakai sebab tak muat on certain parts. For girls especially, do u have the habit to buy pretty clothes and bila try pakai demmit tak muat ? sebab kau over estimate your size LOL. So, same goes to me. I bought a fish tail peplum for the first time dekat The Mines. Masa tu first time tengok macam, eh lawanya baju ni I think I can fit this size and terus beli. Sampai bilik...................tak muat. Sendat macam perut ular sawa telan lembu. Rasa down sangat time tu. Nak bagi ke Angah atau Ain (my sisters) since they are all kurus keding, tapi sayang wooo. So mula lah mencipta harapan palsu iaitu ' Takpe, bila aku kurus nanti,pakailah balik'. Andddd...........takdelah palsu sangat harapan tu bila pagi semalam saje gatal nak try baju tersebut and muat. Ya Allah......*nangis lelaju* akhirnyaaa! So inilah baju nya! 

Apa? gambar bukti muat pakai? Ala segan laaaah haha so cukuplah gambar ni,

Why do I feel so excited about it? Sebab I feel so motivated to lose weight. Sejak gain weight since Asasi until my degree years in UPM, memang rasa tak confident langsung to wear anything. I always feel ugly and hate myself because some flabby parts haha. Nak kurus semula ni tak susah cuma tak kuat nak lawan nafsu makan tu. Bulan puasa is supposed to be a good time for me to lose weight because last Ramadhan I lost 4 kg okay! 4 freaking KG! So this Ramadhan nak jugaklah lose dalam se kg dua if possible. I have started to cut my rice portion a lil bit but itulah, bulan puasa agak mencabar kalau nak workout siang. Still, I work on it.Insya Allah!

#DIY totebag

Since it's a semester break and I got nothing to do (i'm supposed to do my thesis), so what I did was just browsing some recipes for bebuka or anything lah. Tiba-tiba terasa macam nak menjahit even tahu yang I don't have the skill to sew anything. I mean my jahitan tak kemas langsung! Tapi itu tak menghalang ya anak anak untuk hakak mencoba membuat my own tote bag. So mula lah mencari kain perca langsir ibu yang dah tak pakai tu. Nak buat dia tak susah cuma rumit lah. Sebenarnya tak rumit kalau guna mesin jahit tapi hakak ni lembab sikit guna mesin jahit pun tak reti so jahit guna tangan. It took me hours to finish the bag. So hasilnyaaaaaaaa

Cantik tak? Haha tali dia tu I just cut my tali beg sekolah yang lama, dah tak pakai. Saje lah ambik gambar dari jauh sebab kalau tengok dekat-dekat engkorang boleh pitam tengok jahitan akak yang serabut macam tulisan Sanskrit tuuu. So, memang jenuh tapi worth it when you do something on your own. Bila hasilnya takdelah teruk mana, rasa sangat berbaloi dan rasa diri ni takdelah bongok sangat semua benda tak boleh buat.Haha

Jadi itulah achievement Ramadhanku so far. Achievement duniawi lah. Her her. 

Ramadhan rants #1

Salam! :D

Yeay it's Ramadhan! Yep i know its really challenging to fast when the weather is not helping at all. Since i have a very long gap for my final 2 papers, im just lazying around in my room. Allah knows how boring that can be plus the heat. Panas tahap pergi toilet basahkan muka banyak kali. Not sure panas sebab dosa or cuaca yang panas melampau.

But! Ramadhan has got me thinking on certain things.(most of them are about girls)

#LoudGossipers

I was waiting for a bus to bazaar. Lepas tu adalah these group of girls. Well, I usually don't give a damn about people until they suddenly  get so loud and what makes it annoying is they are talking bad about someone. Eh buruk tau tak? You know kan when some girls yang overreact to everything,they open their mouths so wide, lepas tu those over facial expression. To me, if you ever hate anyone, boleh tak you look around first, tengok dulu ramai orang tak? then, check the frequency of your voice. Kalau 2 km dah boleh dengar, bawaklah berbisik ke kan tak pun simpan dulu that story, peram sampai bilik,okay? *smirk*

#EnergeticTalker

And then when i was in the sardined bus, everyone was quiet coz you know it's Ramadhan and of course some were tired/ trying to save energy to shop kat bazaar. KECUALI these 3 girls.AGAIN GIRLS. They were chitchatting as if the bus was theirs. KUAT GILA. Lepas tu gelak gelak (this part annoyed me so much) even though I'm a girl, i dislike/despise girls who go mengilai or gelak gedik tak tentu pasal in public. Masa tu I feel like going to them and tell them this: "Makciks, I know that you r so energetic there and you have so much thing to be talking about. Hence this triggers my thought that either u period so tak puasa banyak energy or u sahur nasi sedulang that's why u banyak tenaga. But please don't be too obvious and shut your traps." Unfortunately, the bus was packed so I was so far from the girls jadi tak bolehlah. Haha sebenarnya I berani cakap dalam my mind je lah kot.

Bila kita rimas sebab berhimpit dalam bas of course lah rimas kalau orang cakap kuat-kuat kan.*sigh*

#PissedOff

Okay this is more to myself. This Ramadhan, i get pissed off over things easily. Maybe because of the weather and you're hungry. Perhaps. Kadang-kadang sebab panas pun macam dah merungut. Orang tak ajak iftar sama pun sentap. Almost semua benda nak get emotional. Is that normal? Tell meeee coz i think its noooooooooooooooooottttttt :(

I guess that's it. Meroyan Ramadhan. Thanks for reading (if there's any readers out there). 

Meet Adowable Alisa Maisarah

Bila ada bestfriend yang dah berkeluarga, instead of getting jealous, mungkin boleh guna masa untuk kongsi kebahagiaan tu. (bukan kongsi kasih dengan suami dia). 

*Ehem*  Cuak tetibe

So!

Alhamdulillah dapatlah jumpa sekejap sahabat dunia akhirat kita tu hihi. Dah jadi ibu dah dia. Kadang-kadang rasa macam taknak percaya je si kecik ni dah jadi mak orang. Ya Allah tuanya rasa. Pebenda kau nak rasa tua Mira, dia yang kahwin muda. Kuang kuang 

Ingat lagi masa sekolah dia lah manusia paling fragile selain pinggan mangkuk kafe tu. I mean memang kerja nak nangis je. At the same time, dia jugaklah yang dah macam guardian angel kita tau kat sana. Haha. Rindu gila zaman duduk asrama. Malam-malam tolong sikatkan rambut memasing. Clingy gila okay! Tidur pun nak satu katil pasal dedua penakut. Nampak betapa clingynya kami? Pernah orang tanya "orang ni lesbian ke?". Nasib baik lah kawan.kalau tak dah lama kena penampor pasal kita geram lah haha. 

Anyway, enough of the memories. Karang recall semua tak habis nak cerita nanti. Jadi, jumpalah si sahabat ni. Alahai comelnya ada baby in her arms. :') Faham tak perasaan dia? Macam weh budak hingusan ni dah ada anak doh. Haa camtu lah. Dah ah anak dia comel.  What a bless.

Maka diri ni gatal lah kata nak pegang baby tu.. Nasib baik dah 3 months so takdelah soft sangat. I can't see newborn baby sebab rasa sangat soft and fragile untuk dipegang. Tak tau lah kalau dah ada anak sendiri nanti. Haha kau rasa? Takkan nak suruh jiran pegangkan.

Masa pegang baby Alisa...Allahu...rasa macam "omg so cute i wanna adopt you" sangat. Dia tak meronta-ronta pun tapi macam cool je ada orang pegang and adore dia. mesti dalam hati dia nyanyi "Lahve me like you do,lahve lahve lahve me like you do". Ok I should stop.

Lisa tengok tu camera.Smileeee
'Hm aunty ni bosan lah. Malas lah nak senyum"

Pahal doh jari tu melentik sangat T.T

Lisa pandang camera.
'Hm yela kejap je kay"
Okay baby :')

Aunty doakan Aisa jadi anak solehah k. Jaga ibu ayah baik baik. Especially ibu. Alisa pulak jaga ibu untuk aunty ye sayang. Nanti bila Alisa dah besar kita boleh main kejar-kejar sama-sama.(optimis gila dah tua nanti sendi kuat).

Sobs. I hope we can meet again <3 

Allah ..bantu aku cari diriku yang dahulu.

Acapkali aku tersedar namun aku akan tersesat semula.
Bila mana aku cuba menyingkap semula potret diriku yang semalam,
aku rindu..rindu diriku yang dahulu.

Apa kurangnya yang sekarang?
Entah,malu untuk aku luahkan.
Rasa seperti serba kekurangan.
Rasa jauh,jauh dan jauh.

Cuma yang aku harapkan....
kembalikan diriku yang dahulu kerana aku tahu...
ia lebih baik daripada sekarang.
sungguh,aku rindu.

Ah macam celaka betul perasaan ni.

Boleh tak aku nak berehat sekejap sebab aku penat.
Terlalu penat.

Rasa ini makin lama semakin mendalam.

Ya Rabb,
lindungilah hati ini.

jangan aku termakan pujuk rayu syaitan yang direjam.